I have worked with horses since I was 19. I dealt with everything from Crazy ass racehorses, to sweet old retired brood mares. I have been kicked in the head, thrown into a wall, kicked in the hip, been drug through the gravel by a foal (thanks Rab, now Kanu), all that and NEVER broken or cracked anything....
That is until Friday June 11, 2011. I was riding a 25 yr old gelding who was feeling particularly lazy thus was dragging his hooves (long in the feet), I was staying on just fine when he tripped 4 times prior. Then he stumbled and I fell off, right onto my elbow, cracking my radial head. In my mind I called him a stupid heffer. What came out of my mouth was a shocked and very shaken up, "He stumbled". Alas as any good rider knows you have to get right back up there or else you will lose your nerve and be scared the rest of your life. Now I have cancer and if Snarla did not scare me, I am damn sure not going to let a little fall scare me. Everyone tells me what I already know: People DIE from falling off horses. DUH I know that. Hell I worked with theses big ole giants. I also know the safest place for you is on the back of a horse. Be calm and don't make loud sudden noises and you won't get stomped or kicked. Now if your horses is attacked by bees Just hold on tight (Speaking from experience) I was riding on a horse packing trip when my horse got stung by several bees at once, she reared then bucked and stopped. By the grace of God I stayed on her back.
Someone who shall remain nameless said, "Horses are dangerous. Just look at what happened to Michale Reeves." Ok I did not have the heart to point out the astonishing number of differences there.
1. He was jumping.
I am not alowed nor would I ever (without proper training) ever attempt a jump on a horse that I did not know or had not ridden before
2. Michael Reeves probably did something drastically wrong with his body which caused the horse to shy and him to fly off over the horses head and land on his neck
I know how to fall when its off of a horse. Tuck your shoulder and roll. However because he STUMBLED i.e. almost went to his knees mid canter I had no space to tuck, I did roll though. I didn't go over his head I went off the side.
Yes accidents happen but I don't need or want anyone telling me what I obviously already know. My father for instance just said, "you do realize that people fall of horses and die." I know they are worried about me and I appreciate that so much. But what I don't appreciate is when someone makes a left field comment about something that is TOTALLY unrelated to me situation. Like a JUMPING accident when I DON'T jump horses. If you ride correctly there is nothing to worry about. Just keep your weight IN the stirrups, don't get left behind, don't ride a horse that is too advanced for you make sure your tack is on correctly..... and so and so forth.
Anywho, I will come down off my soapbox now.
Who wants to know about my MRI??!!!! Me, me, I do, I do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It was good. Though the radiation damage is causing short term memory loss. Example: Yesterday I went to the stables to pay for next session and they got 2 new horses. After being told 3 times what their names were, I finally remembered them like this, "there's a CHANCE you're gonna be JAZZY" I was told I wasn't the first to fall off Jax. I hope I will be one of the last though, he earned his retirement.
now on to the cancer stuff. we as cancer patient are stronger than people that have never had cancer. Our caregivers are some of the strongest people in the world. That doesn't make us better it just makes us different. For those of you that are new to cancer or caring for someone with cancer, my heart goes out to you. I am going to say to you the words that got me through my ordeal.
Just remember, You CAN do it you can do it you can it. and then when think you cannot go on YOU CAN DO IT. Never ever give up.
A friend asked me to post this
That is until Friday June 11, 2011. I was riding a 25 yr old gelding who was feeling particularly lazy thus was dragging his hooves (long in the feet), I was staying on just fine when he tripped 4 times prior. Then he stumbled and I fell off, right onto my elbow, cracking my radial head. In my mind I called him a stupid heffer. What came out of my mouth was a shocked and very shaken up, "He stumbled". Alas as any good rider knows you have to get right back up there or else you will lose your nerve and be scared the rest of your life. Now I have cancer and if Snarla did not scare me, I am damn sure not going to let a little fall scare me. Everyone tells me what I already know: People DIE from falling off horses. DUH I know that. Hell I worked with theses big ole giants. I also know the safest place for you is on the back of a horse. Be calm and don't make loud sudden noises and you won't get stomped or kicked. Now if your horses is attacked by bees Just hold on tight (Speaking from experience) I was riding on a horse packing trip when my horse got stung by several bees at once, she reared then bucked and stopped. By the grace of God I stayed on her back.
Someone who shall remain nameless said, "Horses are dangerous. Just look at what happened to Michale Reeves." Ok I did not have the heart to point out the astonishing number of differences there.
1. He was jumping.
I am not alowed nor would I ever (without proper training) ever attempt a jump on a horse that I did not know or had not ridden before
2. Michael Reeves probably did something drastically wrong with his body which caused the horse to shy and him to fly off over the horses head and land on his neck
I know how to fall when its off of a horse. Tuck your shoulder and roll. However because he STUMBLED i.e. almost went to his knees mid canter I had no space to tuck, I did roll though. I didn't go over his head I went off the side.
Yes accidents happen but I don't need or want anyone telling me what I obviously already know. My father for instance just said, "you do realize that people fall of horses and die." I know they are worried about me and I appreciate that so much. But what I don't appreciate is when someone makes a left field comment about something that is TOTALLY unrelated to me situation. Like a JUMPING accident when I DON'T jump horses. If you ride correctly there is nothing to worry about. Just keep your weight IN the stirrups, don't get left behind, don't ride a horse that is too advanced for you make sure your tack is on correctly..... and so and so forth.
Anywho, I will come down off my soapbox now.
Who wants to know about my MRI??!!!! Me, me, I do, I do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It was good. Though the radiation damage is causing short term memory loss. Example: Yesterday I went to the stables to pay for next session and they got 2 new horses. After being told 3 times what their names were, I finally remembered them like this, "there's a CHANCE you're gonna be JAZZY" I was told I wasn't the first to fall off Jax. I hope I will be one of the last though, he earned his retirement.
now on to the cancer stuff. we as cancer patient are stronger than people that have never had cancer. Our caregivers are some of the strongest people in the world. That doesn't make us better it just makes us different. For those of you that are new to cancer or caring for someone with cancer, my heart goes out to you. I am going to say to you the words that got me through my ordeal.
Just remember, You CAN do it you can do it you can it. and then when think you cannot go on YOU CAN DO IT. Never ever give up.
A friend asked me to post this
Cancer Support Programs
It is no secret that when a person has cancer, is in remission, or has survived cancer that they are looking for support any way they can get it. Many patients with terminal cancers such as mesothelioma credit their family and friend's support for helping them get through the hard times. Treatment is hard and a supportive person can make things a little bit easier. There are many resources for cancer survivors and patients; one includes support networks and programs. According to Cancer.org, support groups "provide comfort, teach coping skills, help reduce anxiety, and provide a place for people to share common concerns and emotional support."
It may not be easy for a person to share their feelings and emotions with someone who has not experienced what they have. Support groups meet to discuss everyone's concerns and emotions. It can make some people stronger because the people they are sitting and talking with know what it is like to be diagnosed with cancer. Stress and anxiety can be reduced and the quality of life in a person can improve through a cancer support groups. There are thousands of support groups found around the United States, and the physician treating the patient is sure to give them those resources.
The difference between a group therapy and a support group is who is leading the group. Cancer survivors, group members or professionals may lead a support group, but licensed counselors lead group therapies. There are many different types of support groups. However, no matter which support group you decide to choose, it is important to find one as soon as a mesothelioma prognosis is given. A cancer diagnosis is hard news to take, and it would be beneficial to that person to get a head's up on the road in front of them from people who have been there. Cancer survivors or people in remission have the most knowledge to give.
Studies and evidence have proven that support groups help people feel less lonely or helpless. They can move forward with their diagnosis and treatment when they have the support of people just like them. Nobody is perfect therefore support from people going through or who have gone through the same thing can reduce tension, anger and confusion. Medication schedules are more likely to be followed when a cancer patient has support from their group. Many programs and networks help patients to fight the cancer and become survivors. If anything, quality of life is guaranteed to get better after the prognosis of cancer and treatment plan.
Support groups are crucial to the health of cancer patients and survivors. While medication and chemotherapy work on the physical aspect of the body, cancer support groups work on creating a positive mental attitude. Cancer support groups can help people to accept, cope and deal with their feelings around people who understand. Nobody is prepared for tragedy to strike when receiving an unfavorable prognosis, but it can be easier to cope when there is support provided.
It may not be easy for a person to share their feelings and emotions with someone who has not experienced what they have. Support groups meet to discuss everyone's concerns and emotions. It can make some people stronger because the people they are sitting and talking with know what it is like to be diagnosed with cancer. Stress and anxiety can be reduced and the quality of life in a person can improve through a cancer support groups. There are thousands of support groups found around the United States, and the physician treating the patient is sure to give them those resources.
The difference between a group therapy and a support group is who is leading the group. Cancer survivors, group members or professionals may lead a support group, but licensed counselors lead group therapies. There are many different types of support groups. However, no matter which support group you decide to choose, it is important to find one as soon as a mesothelioma prognosis is given. A cancer diagnosis is hard news to take, and it would be beneficial to that person to get a head's up on the road in front of them from people who have been there. Cancer survivors or people in remission have the most knowledge to give.
Studies and evidence have proven that support groups help people feel less lonely or helpless. They can move forward with their diagnosis and treatment when they have the support of people just like them. Nobody is perfect therefore support from people going through or who have gone through the same thing can reduce tension, anger and confusion. Medication schedules are more likely to be followed when a cancer patient has support from their group. Many programs and networks help patients to fight the cancer and become survivors. If anything, quality of life is guaranteed to get better after the prognosis of cancer and treatment plan.
Support groups are crucial to the health of cancer patients and survivors. While medication and chemotherapy work on the physical aspect of the body, cancer support groups work on creating a positive mental attitude. Cancer support groups can help people to accept, cope and deal with their feelings around people who understand. Nobody is prepared for tragedy to strike when receiving an unfavorable prognosis, but it can be easier to cope when there is support provided.
Remember You are not a bald freak. You wear your bald head or scars as marks of a warrior that has stared death in the face and spat in its eye.
