No matter what, you cannot prepare yourself for a tragedy. I have been bracing myself for this loss for a long time. I cannot stop the hurt, I know this. I used to make myself believe that something horrible happened and I would cry. That was my way of prepping for tragedy. It does not work. No matter what, it causes a fresh hurt, a tear in the soul, an indescribable pain. Only faith and family can get you through the event. If you have been through as much crap as my family has, you get strong or die. You support each other, or watch each other go insane. If you have a strong family unit, one of you can be teetering on the brink of insanity and a family member will pull you back to solid ground. That is a connection that is much greater than friendship, it's blood.
Cancer is synonymous with death. But none of us get out of life alive. So whats the point of fearing death. We are all mortal, we will all die. When you die it will be as it was before you were born. Out of pain, out of consciousness. Whatever else there is we will not be able to tell our loved ones. They will find solace in their faith, whatever that may be.
Life is full of twists and turns. Life will take you to places that you never imagined. You will find strength you did not know you had. I look back at my life and realize I have tapped into strength reserves that I had no idea were there.
My point is there is nothing you can do to stop the feeling of pain that comes from a death in the family. Even if you have been prepping for years.
Rest in peace Dr Samuel Garner you were the patriarch of our family and will be missed terribly. But I am glad you are out of pain.
Cancer is synonymous with death. But none of us get out of life alive. So whats the point of fearing death. We are all mortal, we will all die. When you die it will be as it was before you were born. Out of pain, out of consciousness. Whatever else there is we will not be able to tell our loved ones. They will find solace in their faith, whatever that may be.
Life is full of twists and turns. Life will take you to places that you never imagined. You will find strength you did not know you had. I look back at my life and realize I have tapped into strength reserves that I had no idea were there.
My point is there is nothing you can do to stop the feeling of pain that comes from a death in the family. Even if you have been prepping for years.
Rest in peace Dr Samuel Garner you were the patriarch of our family and will be missed terribly. But I am glad you are out of pain.
I am so sorry for your loss and your pain. To feel it and share it with such beauty and tenderness is a gift that you have and I feel privileged to read your words. And, by the way, the blog's "Reactions" choices of _funny, _interesting, and _cool are far too limiting for you, Andrea. I'm looking for words like inspiring, moving, insightful, uplifting...those are the checkboxes I would use. -- Jere
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ReplyDeleteI am very pleased that you are interested in my writing. It warms my heart that I can bring words of inspiration to you and all my other followers.
Thank you for the encouragement
Andrea Garramone