So fellow cancer fans...
I went to the dentist today and she fit my with a bite splint Unfortunately it is cutting my lip. After that was my first workout. Then I came home and took my chemo.....wait for it....
Then they called and told me that my platelets are low 76. OOPS
Well whatever doesn't kill you makes you stronger.
Anyway, I have been writing this blog as a guide to other cancer patients as to how it feels to actively go thru cancer. If anyone else got brain cancer and they went thru what I went thru and this guide helps them even a little bit better about having this terminal disease, then I have accomplished my goal.
Teresa was always asking me "What message are you trying to convey?" Well Teresa above is your answer.
I spoke with my friend of over 13 years and I still care deeply for Daniel m, we saved each others lives when we were 16.
My husband and sisters and assorted other people have been invaluable to me during this exp. And I am a changed woman if you think I am inspirational take a good long look in the mirror. You are my inspiration and support and I thank you for standing by me.
Love you all, and barring an act of higher power I will be here for years to come.
Thursday, September 30, 2010
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
News
To everyone that has supported us in the Brain Tumor Walk....THANK YOU!!!!!
So yesterday I saw my oncologist and she said that the edema has gone gone down enough to allow them the see the scar tissue and DORMANT cancer cells. Mike was angry when I told him about the cancer cells and I attempted to explain they are dormant. He was in no mood to hear it bc he is irked about something else, anyway he called Vanessa and she alleviated his fears and clarified the information for him.
He thought they got it ALL out and I told him that it was On TOP of my movement center so they couldn't possibly have re-sectioned the entire thing, otherwise I would be bedridden unable to speak or do absolutely anything for myself. He says what is afraid of is it coming back more aggressive and resistant to treatment and I will leave this world. I told him that WILL happen there is No avoiding it, the only thing we can do is make the most of our time here together. We hope it doesn't come back for years as in plural we would like to have at least 1 year with no tumor worries. Is that so much to ask?
It isn't me that is worried or scared or any other negative emotion. I am simply waiting.
My motto: Expect the worst and hope for the best. (That way you cannot be disappointed)
So yesterday I saw my oncologist and she said that the edema has gone gone down enough to allow them the see the scar tissue and DORMANT cancer cells. Mike was angry when I told him about the cancer cells and I attempted to explain they are dormant. He was in no mood to hear it bc he is irked about something else, anyway he called Vanessa and she alleviated his fears and clarified the information for him.
He thought they got it ALL out and I told him that it was On TOP of my movement center so they couldn't possibly have re-sectioned the entire thing, otherwise I would be bedridden unable to speak or do absolutely anything for myself. He says what is afraid of is it coming back more aggressive and resistant to treatment and I will leave this world. I told him that WILL happen there is No avoiding it, the only thing we can do is make the most of our time here together. We hope it doesn't come back for years as in plural we would like to have at least 1 year with no tumor worries. Is that so much to ask?
It isn't me that is worried or scared or any other negative emotion. I am simply waiting.
My motto: Expect the worst and hope for the best. (That way you cannot be disappointed)
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