lets take a trip down memory lane shall we

In the beginning When the docs told me it was ana astrocytoma I immediately referenced that to the Farscapr episode when Chrichton is having scorpius chip taken out of his head. I just want this to be chronicled for my book if I ever can force myself to do it. I mean who in their right mind would would Hire someone evan with VAST experience in counseling like personal shit that happened to me and then I live through brain cancer. And  a BA in psychology hahahaha  ironic much??? The Odds are in my favor. I WANT TO MAKE A DIFFERENCE!!!!
If there is anyone else out there that feels like this  i want your advice.  No sympathy people, the word is EMPATHY  if you've been thrtough it not if you watched someone gothrough it I watched and I knew but now I understand and have developed EMPATHY.

So who votes what I should do with my radiation mask. these are all my mike and I came up with these ideas

1. mount it on the wall
2.attach it to my face for halloween
3.

love to hear from you

as i go about the day...

i am constantly running an inner monologue and it a blog but i don't write it all down. jeez this is frustrating. the waiting, I mean not the actual cancery cancer monster.  Though that part freaks me out a little. I am doing my best to get back to "mormal crap

can't type.  
est to get back to "normal" but whats normal any way?  that took a while to get back in order.

I now have an excuse for being an airhead. HEHE
brain freeze hurts twice as much with half brain.

new life

So I have been thinking alot about what to do now. I have a vast experience in many many areas including lobe damage.  I know and understand how that feels. But I have gotten through it all with help from you guys. 
Thank you so much.

I have gotten strong enough to exercise my dogs now and I miss working, I mean I don't miss my brain being taxed but I do miss wanting to tax my brain.
I made a dog run in the storage above the garage and run the dogs around it with a laser pointer... they get the advantage of exercise but not challenging. Am I amused by the laser light? No, it gets boring after a while. But the dogs are a hoot to watch.

Just ramble, that feels nice. As Valencia Whaley in high school told me "Just float..."


Mikes home and he said "I was just called Mr. Jordan. I said  No nono cal me by my FULL name Michael Jordan"  It reminded me that my email is ae jordan23.

Now if you are in my head that is funny.

whats going to happen now

hello all,

To all my readers of this blog near and far. There are not meny of you who do this faithfully and for your dedication I am grateful.  It has kept me going even when I dropped to 99 lbs and was told by dr N that I was "Wasting away". 
There is this chick Jackie who is manager at Jamba Juise on Frankfort and Preston. Drop by and tell I'm feeling great cause her smoothies are wicked fatty. In a 16oz peanut butter mood 1000-1500 calories.

I am 107and a half.  Yes trhe half is important.

Truth  is, I feel like the past six weeks I have been an alien experiment. Poked and proded and frun through the gammit of whats fine whats not fine it hurts makes me weak sux your energy period. 

So on to what happens now.  Mri Monday 9 am which amy is taking me to.  Tuesday Mike is taking a half day to take me to se Dr. Fink.  Now dr fink is more than likely going to take the scan and tell me we have to wait for the radiation to settle before she can tell us what to expect. I guess I wil get another scan in early April and we will see where we are.  LIL nervous... but I get a wahole MONTH off!!!!  from treatment

Graduated from radiation!!!

graduated from radiation.  today is the first day of the rest of my life.  I know its cheesy but you cannot understand how this feels unless you've been through it. 
I can attach this feeling to hiding in a hloe and finally seeing the light.  Being poked and proded through the whole ordeal was noxious.  See I don't know if I spelled that right and I don't care.  All I know is today I got to sleep late and tomorrow  though not promised I will wake up late, like at 9am.  But the thing is I wonder how I am going to feel after 3 days instead of 2 days break.  What can I expect as I embark on this rollercoaster ride.

what makes me so strong why have I come so far and still feel empathy for others.  At least I am not jaded.  Still waiting for my energy to return though i hope they yanked out the adhd.  Now who am I?

"That's all I've got How did you like that?",(Kellie Rasberry "Kidd Kraddick Morning show")

Did not create it just copied and pasted

Sikhs believe that every creature has a Soul; on death, the Soul is passed from one body to another until Liberation. The journey of the Soul is governed by the deeds and actions that we perform during our lives. If we perform good deeds and actions and remember the Creator, we attain a better life. On the contrary, if we carry out evil actions and sinful deeds, we will be incarnated in “lower” life forms – snakes, lions, zebra, monkeys, hippopotamus etc. The person who has evolved to spiritual perfection attains salvation – union with God.^{[citation needed]}
The Karmas of a person will definitely have their effect, both good and bad. No worldly power can change the course of their movement. But according to the Sikh thought, the Almighty God, with his Grace, may pardon the wrongs of a person and thus release him/her from the pangs of suffering.^[24] Reincarnation, simply stated, is the law of cause and effect: reincarnation does not create any caste or differences among people: past and present life's actions simply have a bearing upon a specific individual. Reincarnation in no way makes one superior to another.

believe me YOU CAN make a difference

Okay like the fb thing about the colors of the bra here goes.  support this give it to your churches organizations doctors

http://www.thesouthernshift.com/tags/texas-coalition-compassionate-care

http://www.cannabisni.com/medicinal-cannabis-news/1295-the-texas-coalition-for-compassionate-care-want-marijuana-legalised-for-medicine

Source: http://www.nbcdfw.com/news/politics/Texas-Group-Wants-to-Legalize-Marijuana-as-Medicine-80676112.html

Legalize it please

Please spread the word.  Click the link to go to support for legalizing MEDICAL marijuana in texas.  It is critical for cancer patients who have no desire to eat and are in chronic gut wrenching pain.

http://www.texascompassion.com/Print-Materials/minister-org%20statement.pdf

first wk of february 2010

so this wk started off bad... really bad. I flipped out bc my cousin died he was 22.
 so my family is distraught.
I was tired mon-thurs but this morning I woke up and it feels like I am on a very thin sheet of happiness and it will eventually grow and become solid or crack, splinter, shatter and I will fall through into the icy water below.  Mike and I are playing the wait and see game.
I am scared and tentative, because I feel back to normal.  normal is abnormal to me now.  But Dr Fink is thinking of giving me the month of MARCH OFF!!!!!!  That would be nice mike and I will pack up the dogs and just go away for a while.

ouch

this sux.  My hair hurts.  not kidding the radiation is killing the folicles and it HURTS!!!!!! but I can't pull it out. I put tape on my head and ripped it off hoping that it would take the hair with it. it sort of worked.  I just need to shave it.

But I made my fathers chicken soup.  Yay!!!

Treatment Calendar

Here is the most updated calendar of Andrea's treatment schedule.

http://www.google.com/calendar/embed?src=l1fpamh2dn7mfb35900euv0ric%40group.calendar.google.com&ctz=America/Chicago







We are working on trying to find other means of transportation through CanCare.org. However, their resources are very limited. If you would like help out and drive Andrea to or from any of her rehabilitation sessions, please contact me and I'll fit you in.

Thank you.

Mike