To everyone that has supported us in the Brain Tumor Walk....THANK YOU!!!!!
So yesterday I saw my oncologist and she said that the edema has gone gone down enough to allow them the see the scar tissue and DORMANT cancer cells. Mike was angry when I told him about the cancer cells and I attempted to explain they are dormant. He was in no mood to hear it bc he is irked about something else, anyway he called Vanessa and she alleviated his fears and clarified the information for him.
He thought they got it ALL out and I told him that it was On TOP of my movement center so they couldn't possibly have re-sectioned the entire thing, otherwise I would be bedridden unable to speak or do absolutely anything for myself. He says what is afraid of is it coming back more aggressive and resistant to treatment and I will leave this world. I told him that WILL happen there is No avoiding it, the only thing we can do is make the most of our time here together. We hope it doesn't come back for years as in plural we would like to have at least 1 year with no tumor worries. Is that so much to ask?
It isn't me that is worried or scared or any other negative emotion. I am simply waiting.
My motto: Expect the worst and hope for the best. (That way you cannot be disappointed)
It's a hard place to be, facing what you have faced.
ReplyDeleteThe truth is, we're all headed for the same brick wall, it's just a matter of how fast we're going to hit it.
Life is made of memories and love, if you let it be.
Keep your eyes on what's important, and the other stuff won't seem like such a big deal.